... isn't so bad. I wondered how I would fill my time if I wasn't involved in competitive athletics, and now I am happy to report that I have found plenty of new ways to occupy my time.
Sometimes I think about guys I used to race with that seem to just 'disappear'. At some point, people decide not to race their bikes, and they move on to something else, it really isn't a sad turn of events, just a natural developmental progression.
I guess the 'story' of this blog will be whether or not I race again (or at least 'when' I start back up). I am making sure not to close off any racing avenues... for example, I am trying to keep my VO2 Max within striking distance (of course my power to weight ratio is f'd up because of my upper body strength training focus), and I haven't formally 'quit'.
So, if I opt to renew my USAC license and sign up for a race, I will pick things up on this blog where I left off. Essentially, this blog is a way for me to document my experiences while supporting Midwest cycling, so I will be happy to continue if I am still involved. But I won't prolong my misery by posting every passing notion I have. I will either be "in" or "out", and right now I am "in between". A 'leave of absence' seems to be happening right now... which correctly implies that I will get back to the sport once I fulfill my current aspirations.
In the meantime, my obsessions include reading psychology text books and writing papers (en route to a grad degree), red wine, group wellness, and strength training. I am a pretty good dad, but there is some room for improvement, so I may dig up some ways to get more into 'parenting'.
I guess I am still recovering from the way last season shook out for me. Being on a team isn't easy for someone like me. I put everything into it, which makes me vulnerable to burn-out and being disappointed.
I can't wait to read my next headline... your guess is as good as mine what it will read... in the meantime, competitive cycling is an awesome way to appreciate a healthy lifestyle, so please continue to involve yourself and thanks for your past support.